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Sunday, August 22, 2010

Manja? Mengada-ngada? or just plain jealous??

Facebook oh facebook.

if u don't exist, i may have less of such feelings.

Seriously, many many people have labeled me as a person who has no feelings..oR a person who's always happy. But i'm normal. I do have feelings. Not that they don't exist, they are carefully hidden. Hidden in a place to be forgotten if the feelings are negative.. and hidden so that no one knows if the feelings are embarrassing.

Recently i have noticed something. I'm not good at hiding feelings anymore like i used to be..or maybe i'm just tired of hiding them. (I'm posting my feelings to my not-so-secret-diary now, so wht do u think?)

As fast as I can smile to someone... As easy as I can say 'yes' to someone's request..
i am also easily jealous of someone, easily irritated by irrational reason and most important i can be distracted really easily. Like, i should be focusing on my books now, looking at the long list below.

i wonder what has happened to me

Like yesterday when Kak almas shows me something. It's really2 disturbing. I kept thinking of what i've seen..and my effort now. Truthfully, I haven't done as much as what they had which explains my position right now. After all life is like a big wheel, u'r up if u work hard + lucky and u can be at the lowest position if u get distracted. This is my life and i make decision for myself. Therefore, I AM the one who's responsible for the consequences caused. who else can i blame anyway...

Will i achieve my dreams? Is my determination still strong??

I'm starting to have doubts. I HOPE ALL THESE DOUBTS WILL FADE, SOON.

Ramadhan oh ramadhan, make the best out of us.
Ya Allah, please ya allah, strengthen our determination for success. Let our hearts, our thoughts, and our actions be directed just for you. Only u ya allah, that i love most.

P/s: I admit that i'm manja at certain groups of people that I love but I'm definitely not mengada-ngada. If i want something, i work hard, i pray. My jealousy level is very high, i know. Thanks to jealousy i kept pushing myself.


Syahmi said...

oh don't worry, it's normal. this is what we call as self-revelation. everyone has his/her own turning point in life. how you deal with it is entirely up to you :)

waaa, jealousy is a strong word. and i dont think ur working hard because u feel jealous. maybe ur just envious, or admire them perhaps? that's why u want to work harder to be in the same level with others, or better still, be in a better lever than the others.

May Allah bless any of your right-doings Alia. Amin :)

tot tot kecik said...


alia sgt mencemburui anda untuk ada perasaan tu..

perasaan jelous tu da xde kt kte skang..xmcm dulu2 perasaan tu wujud dan jadikan lebih baek untuk setaraf bersama mereka..

kte xtau nk jeles kt sape kt sini..no one sama kos ngan kte yg kte knl dulu2..hurmmm xtau cane..ase sgt2 malas sem baru ni...sume test kuiz assigment wt cincai2 je..

huhu :(

alia nadhirah said...

how come i just read this. hehe.. i'm not sure what's on my mind while i'm writing this but thanks! :D May allah bless u also my dear friend


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no matter what happens, i'll forever and always be supporting u. seriously.

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