Feelings For You

I love poem so much.  Playing with words to express feelings is one of the arts that I value highly since I was very little :) I am always easily impressed by people who could write meaningful description effortlessly.

During my kindergarten/primary school years, I used to would write mama a letter whenever I got scolded by her, or feeling very sad for a reason or another.  Of course, I poured my heart content in the letter. hehe..  

Also, I am always looking forward to my parents' birthday, so that I could communicate my love and appreciation to them without feeling awkward.

So, just now, I found a very interesting poem and I think it would be a good one to share.  I edited the poem a bit.. just for fun. Happy reading :)

 

Feelings For You

Sometimes I wonder how I feel about you,
Scared of these feelings because it’s still new
I catch myself thinking of the best way to share,
Hoping you’ll return my confession showing you care
And then I catch myself again… and drag my thoughts back to reality
I am back at square one, does this just happen to me?

Poems are so stupid I swear I would never do this
But this is YOU, and you aren’t like anyone I have met
How much longer do I have to write, can I tell you yet?
 

Sitting in the same noisy place

I only could listen to your calming voice,

Anxious of my own feelings, gazillions of thoughts appear

Are you the one for me? I wonder

Hear what I am about to say to you, feel it from my heart, see it in my face
Hear it in my words and tone when we converse

I think I like you! So much more than I ever thought I could

 If only you know.

Edited from source: Feelings For You, Falling in Love Poem http://www.familyfriendpoems.com/poem/feelings-for-you#ixzz2RTNTUoCi 

thanks for reading! :)

Teenage heart

I am still a teenage right?

hehe..

Assalamualaikum everyone.  Just a quick short post from me who terribly fail to sleep tonight and lost 6 lives already playing candy crush on facebook last 1 and a half hour.

Oh no, is this alia? How did she get involved with fb game? Ok, you may ask miss ming fang this question.  One fine day before maghrib, a day before natural resource test, she gave her advance handphone to me persuading me to play that game.  and of course, an easy to be influenced person like me has fallen in love with this game.  As stated by ming fang (2013) "Org tu develop game susah2 kenapa kita xmau main?" Lol ming fang, a very good reasoning which has become my strong reason too :)

Alright, enough about the game.

Oh, and it's raining outside which kak fadz said in fb due to her effort in singing froggy song "yeaayyy hujan.. berjaya jugak hasil aku menyanyi lagu kodok ngorok tadi... hehe"

And before i went upstairs to sleep (eh, playing candy crush), i spent quality time with opah watching 'kilauan suara emas polident'. huhu.. i hope this compensate for living opah alone today for the whole day.  and my plan tomorrow is to accompany my 2 grandmas doing whatever they plan to do as I've been very busy last 7 days and cant even have a proper meal with them.  and i promise myself to spend at least 5 day hour to do my homework (dengar tu alia, dah janji k).

The main topic: Teenage heart
I have received a very happy news recently and upon knowing my acceptance, i felt like climbing the coconut tree. haha.. For the whole semester (next sem) I'll be going for an exchange program in Poland under erasmus mundus.  I will make a post on this later..mm don't know when yet.

But, after 2 days, i was back to the normal me because, of course, being a student, you'll never be able to get rid of, above EVERYthing, the worry of not finishing your piling paperwork yet, in addition to preparation for in class presentations and testsss.  And now it's past 3 weeks already since I received the news, thus I do feel very normal.  No more over excited face coming to class, answering whatever comes first in her mind to every lecturer's question. lol

Of my teenage heart, i start to wonder, what would it feel like to be far away from my comfort zone.  Far away from the grasp of my parents and their immediate consultation whenever i need them, far away from opah and tok timah comforting advise and delicious cooking, and far away from my supportive fun friends.

Mixing with people of different upbringing, exposure and beliefs and perhaps may have conflicting views on me.. Would my Imaan be strong enough?

I'm reflecting myself, trying my best to improve and strengthen my Imaan, attitude, personality and everything.  More than materialistic preparation, I've to prepare mentally.

I want to be someone that my parents could let go with confidence, trust and peace of mind when September comes.

One thing for sure, I shall miss EVERYone that I know in Malaysia really really badly.  Thank god, it'll only be 6 months.
 
oh, i guess this post is not short after all. haha..
thanks for reading! :)

p/s: I'm currently managing a small business for GSB Club and it's so much fun :)