trying my best is just not enough

i need passion!

hello everyone!
i've just reached ptar 1 with the intention to do some dr o's work
but knowing me, u know that i would not be able to do much. huhu~~

why?
1. i'm not good at dreamweaver, swishmax, photoshop
2. because i don't like doing these
3. i'm alone (my sis n her friend is studying in the other section of the lib.), so the tendency to merapu is very high

i'll try my best though..
alia, jngn malas!!


anyway, these are the blooming flowers that i planted myself
:)
i forgot to tell u that gardening is my new passion..hehe
my house is now surrounded with all kinds of trees
these plants is the new medicine 4 my worries
i love all of u!!
haha..

i dedicated this red rose 2 all my friends :)

Just don't say something for the sake of saying something

yeah. think before you speak. because ur words might be all but meaningless.

note to self: i better improve my presentation or else!
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recently there had been quite a number of sudden deaths around.
first was MJ,

then
Yasmin Ahmad, the person whom i admired for her intelligence in doing adverts and movies

and today we lost Ustaz Asri (Rabbani).

بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمنِ الرَّحِيمِ
الْحَمْدُ للّهِ رَبِّ الْعَالَمِينَ
الرَّحْمـنِ الرَّحِيمِ
مَالِكِ يَوْمِ الدِّينِ
إِيَّاكَ نَعْبُدُ وإِيَّاكَ نَسْتَعِينُ
اهدِنَــــا الصِّرَاطَ المُستَقِيمَ
صِرَاطَ الَّذِينَ أَنعَمتَ عَلَيهِمْ غَيرِ المَغضُوبِ عَلَيهِمْ وَلاَ الضَّالِّينَ


i have been thinking of many things since this afternoon
n these three thoughts are very very disturbing...

1. life is short. very short
2. i have to do many more things before i died
3. losing someone is terrifying
and i don't want to lose anyone

however to determine life and death is far beyond my power.

so what can i do?
what can i do to protect people's life? i can barely do anything to save my decent life if H1N1 attacks me except for swallowing medicine.
how pathetic.

feeling helpless is a feeling that i hate the most.

recently my parents booked 4 places 4 umrah trip and i am not included in the list.
reason given by them: i hv to take care of nwfal n ayman i had been there already.
my reaction: what!!!!!! xkire alia nk ikot jgak!! alia blanjala diorg 2 org p'gi sane. xnak kene tinggal!! wuuu..
the response: awk nk blanje ngn ape?
(gadoh2 lagi.......)

i was frustrated giler bcos the feeling of being left is certainly not good. i mean the feeling is very bad. (secretly praying that they would cancel the trip if they really wnt 2 exclude me. )

The fourth day of class

To begin with, i can sense the future procrastination and self pampering that i will soon be doing throughout the whole semester. AND THIS IS NOT GOOD! n much too dangerous for my CGPA.

~~~oh, please believe me that living in own house is the biggest dugaan ever!

Starting from now, i will make it a point to do the given assignment FIRST before heading home. (as mama has suggested)

p/s: berasa ketakutan hanya setelah mendengar penerangan dr othman tentang subjek WEB-ENABLED MULTIMEDIA E-LANGUAGE PRODUCTION

We finally got a class at kenanga..all the classes there used 2 be the students' dorms. it's fortunate that this old building had been painted new. if not..haish

The best thing about uitm is its libraries. i'm not sure yet how many libraries r there in the campus but all i can say is: there are practically books on everything that u can ever think of. i guess that is one of the benefits learning in a university which offers endless list of courses.
many courses=maaany people+maaaaaaaany books! =) heaven!

Talking about Shah Alam main campus, today is my first day driving on my own to class. The experience was quite scary as i'm not an expert..huhu.. there were soo many cars and i'm sure the number will never decreased.. so i've to just live with it (unless i want 2 take the bus which would be very inconvenient as the 15 mnutes journey might end up to 2 hours or more)

There are so many things that i want to explore and i just cant wait to jump into the olympic size swimming pool..hehe.. (planning 2 go with tun as soon as she brings her swimmng suit frm PD ;))

I am currently trying my best to adapt myself to this new hectic environment and is really hoping that things will get much better 4 all of us :)

from left: joel, hazman, azahana, meera, khadijah, maryam, farah, me, and fareha
dining together b4 going back to school~
good luck guys! all the best 2 all of u :)

counting days..

why?
because a new semester is about to begin..yeay!!
(haha.. i'm practising positive thinking ok)
in fact, i'll officially be a third semester student in the next 3 days. wow!!

a new semester means
- i'm nearer 2 the graduation..lol
- i can meet my friends again :)
- i'll stop myself from wasting more time (alaaaaaa...)
- new exciting subjects to be explored =D
- new learning environment to be experienced..wuhhuw

a new semester also marks
- the end of this lovely vacation
- new challenges and problems to be faced

in all, i'll do my best for this new coming semester :)
....work harder, be stronger (it's a must!), avoid last minute work!!!
(or should i just play more in class?? hmm...*grin*)
LETS ACHIEVE SUCCESS TOGETHER!!

a small gathering
with beloved schoolfriends

sitting from left: aisyah, wana, salmi
from right: noreha, hazman, joel

Pavilion, KL

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more pictures that i just found in my laptop files~

nice bending tree that we met on the journey to terengganu

it's good to have the 'i-am-tall' feeling..haha

i'm still trying to figure out what the boys were doing..lol

this is the sweetest lychee that i'd ever tasted

my last words: transformers is soo cool!
(haha.. tiade kaitan)